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DaRk AnGel : Why Home : December 2005
Meanderings...
December 2, 2005 19:16
Another night of broken restless sleep -Up and down - never really tired until it is too late to go back to bed. Then I function in a fog for the remainder of the day. I went to Wal Mart today, my usually Friday jaunt. And as it is every week the women that... (Read Article)
Love like God Does......
December 3, 2005 20:06
It was a freak day here today.. 80 degrees and sunny.. How strange? November is usually the beginning of our chilly season. I do enjoy the day.. It was so very nice.. So easy to find much to be thankful for when the weather is welcoming and warm.. I have continued... (Read Article)
What a precious gift life is..
December 4, 2005 20:14
Had a good thing going on.. was writing away and bam the same damn monster that steals socks out of the dryer stole my words and thoughts from this little window.. Dman that thing.. Mis-spelling intentional for those that might be offended..I was ragging on... (Read Article)
The Stranger in Wal Mart
December 6, 2005 19:14
I really get Melancholy this time of the year.. I guess it is due to all the people I care about not living near. Television is a constant reminder that this is the time for families and to be surrounded by those we love. I can understand the Seasonal Anxiety... (Read Article)
It is a question I will never have to ask.
December 7, 2005 20:59
The Christmas cards are all mailed. The gifts ordered and sent. The prisoners each have a money order on the way - Christmas is covered.. It is a hard season for many, myself being one of them. Alone is a horrible way to spend this time of love and communion... (Read Article)
Internet Psychopaths....
December 9, 2005 19:46
Internet Bullies….Ever notice that every forum has bullies in them? Cowards who remain faceless yet threaten and abuse others at every chance they get. Often the only words spelled correctly in their posts are the ones that one never learns in school. Their... (Read Article)
a wonderful piece of inspiration.
December 12, 2005 20:12
I usually am hesitant to post something someone else has written. But every now and then something comes along that MUST be shared. The following is a speech made by Steve Jobs of Apple fame at the Stanford Graduation. I think it is a wonderful piece of inspiration.... (Read Article)
Renee - Merry Christmas wherever you are…
December 13, 2005 19:00
Renee was a woman that was supposed to come, put me in my place and vindicate the women and the women's movement. It was the 1970's and I lived in a commune that was woman heavy. This simply meant that at any given time the ratio of man to woman was usually... (Read Article)
Something I wished I had said...
December 15, 2005 21:46
"To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.... To weep is to risk appearing sentimental... To reach out for another is to risk involvement.. To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self... To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their... (Read Article)
One year of silence
December 16, 2005 00:33
I so miss
The silence of my nights
Being broken by the sounds
Of love sighs
Slumbering in comfortable
Contentment.
So few of the nights
In this long life,
Yet each remembered
And embraced forever.
Cold winter darkness
Warmed by a leg draped over
And the smell of your hair
On a pillow near.
One year of silence
And I still beg the phone
To ring
Just one more time
To hear your smile.
Was I such a torment,
I gave more than I had,
Waiting for the return
Of the sun in your life.
You left amidst my weakest moments
Surrounded by words unmeant
And used them to run from your heart's
Total desires and the love
You never had before.
I pray against hope
That somehow your vision of me
Will become clear in this shroud
That sighs again break my silence
And entwined together forever
We are
Us.
The one man I almost killed.
December 17, 2005 19:54
There is an event that caused one of the most beautiful periods of my life to end quickly and in ugly anger and violence. Unexpected change of life. One of the few that made everything I thought different in a second. One so powerful that there was no going... (Read Article)
Happy Birthday to my ex wife - The greatest gift I ever really gave you was that lie.
December 19, 2005 19:49
Today is my ex wife's birthday..Funny that this day is always full of melancholy for me. I actually miss her friendship, one that I intentionally ended. My loss of her friendship is due to my knowingly causing it.We met in 1986 on her father's birthday. He... (Read Article)
Christmas Eve's eve... RANT... Anger... Hurt...
December 23, 2005 20:28
I have spent much of today wrapped in blankets totally succumbing to depression. I am tired of jumping and running at the wrong numbers that call. I am tired of so much pain for loving you so much. I am tired of making you into something you are not… I always... (Read Article)
Wal Mart Reality....
December 23, 2005 20:30
At Wal Mart today, I had finished my shopping and was waiting for my ride, when I noticed a young woman. She was standing away from the door way holding up DVDs. As people passes she shyly would quietly say "Three Dollars".She was dressed in powder blue sweats... (Read Article)
The perfect gift
December 25, 2005 20:37
My sister and I, being part of an abusive family that existed in survival mode, were never close. I have seen her twice in the last 10 years, and we are total opposites. I am the people lover, giver, and warm one. She is very quiet, and lives her life with... (Read Article)
Reflection on Fear
December 30, 2005 19:38
I write prisoners as a hobby. It is something I started in 1996 when I was needing to do something for others but my time was limited. Each one has taught me something, and I hope to inspire them to a better life. We both benefit. [I do state here as I do... (Read Article)
New Years 2006
December 31, 2005 23:59
Dear You…I wish you happiness in everything you do and in everything done to you.I wish you the ability to accept life’s changes as challenges and to succeed at each.I wish you quick healing for those moments of pain.I wish you kind words in dealing with the... (Read Article)